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Friday, December 1st, 2006
3:12 pm	So. Here we go. Yeah. I know it's been a while since I posted. I've been kind of busy and not always at a terminal. That is something I do want to change and plan on changing soon. I've been real tired lately. Going to bed early and waking up early doesn't seem to help. Forcing myself to be up for most of the night doesn't help either, since it only exabates the situation. Things also have been slowly changing within me. I know that there are some lines which should not be crossed. The problem comes into where I'm unsure at what point to draw the line. In a garden, am I a gardener, flower or weed. (This doesn't even count the whole dominant, s ubmissive angle, which I have that resolved) I'm no longer tied down by the need to please everyone, since I know I'm going to be pissing someone off at least once a day. Now I just choose whom I please and whom I intentionally annoy. More to come soon. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 23rd, 2006
5:25 pm	( Been_Ages ) More to come soon. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 22nd, 2006
4:47 pm	Bless me. How long has it been since I did a post? Huhhhn...where to begin. (glances at phone with ringing call from parent and tells the phone to shut it) Ok. Levon was fired as of 7/14. She had too many instances of leaving the company stranded, and Walter had enough. So that made me the new pt co-ordinator full time. (phone is ringing again) ...ok. ok ok.. I'm coming home...damn! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
5:38 pm	I'm not dead. That is all. More to come later. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
4:59 pm	Is it a bad sign when a person you're interested in has failed three sections of a test on a men's magazine "Keep or Dump" quiz? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
4:50 pm	Meh. Not surprised that people didn't respond to my story. Maybe I should write about something a bit less...scifi and a bit more realtime? Thoughts along that way would be appreciated. Still doing decent at the Nephrology practice. I think it's a joy to finally be allowed to have a job where they don't pay me lip service when I voice an idea. I know I irritated a few people with my blunt words, but the ting of it is...don't ever make the assumption that because I'm new I don't know what I'm doing. The person who reports to Walter (CC) said it best: I can spell it out to people..I just need to work on how I spell it out. My .. spark .. if you will is slowly dying out. The spark I'm referring to: Creativity. I have a few very ..vibrant.. ideas, just have a very hard time trying to put the words to paper, research them or even experience them. Some of my ideas: ( Not_quite_worksafe ) Meh (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
4:55 pm	An interesting story I'm writing ( Yeah.. ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 15th, 2006
12:48 pm	For FFX-2...how does one get the AP Egg? (Comment on this)
12:46 pm	Read this and you'll see my past week. And no..I'm not trying to be angst-y..I'm just tired of some ****. ( Read ) That was sent to some local media agencies. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 1st, 2006
11:16 am	Update ( Hi. ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 30th, 2006
3:32 pm	Meme! [URL=http://ff-fan.com][IMG]http://www.ff-fan.com/chartest/banners/laguna.jpg[/IMG][/URL] Which FF Character Are You? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
5:00 pm	This might get me killed..but a friend sent it. ( Read_me ) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
5:04 pm	( Hi ) (Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
5:11 pm	Do any of you remember my post about fear being the soul-killer and mind-killer? Seems I'm still afraid. And both mind and soul are dying. How does one respond when one is free-floating into darkness? (Comment on this)
5:09 pm	From..subverse There's at least 1 person on your LiveJournal that wants to date you or sleep with you. So lets play........ FRIENDS w/BENEFITS The rules are simple... If you want to date the person who posts this, post a comment saying "I'm yours" If you want me to top/dom you, a "Please, m'lord" goes a long way. ;-) If you want to top/dom me, "On your knees" works pretty well. If you just want to sleep with the person and stay friends, post a comment that says "I'd hit it" SCARED??? You ONLY live ONCE! THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS!!! & see who replies. All responses will be screened (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
1:14 pm	Ehhh... I may be fired tomorrow. Nite. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
4:50 pm	Hey ( Hey ) Current Mood: blank (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
5:13 pm	( 5_4_3_2_1 ) (Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
11:17 am	My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul her_knight goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as wolfman. blu_eyed_gemini gives you 6 light blue coconut-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. celinasub gives you 12 pink licorice-flavoured jawbreakers. lpassociation tricks you! You get a block of wood. mermaidnchains gives you 12 blue passionfruit-flavoured jawbreakers. penultimate03 tricks you! You get a rotten egg. quietwillow tricks you! You lose 13 pieces of candy! redhotlips tricks you! You lose 8 pieces of candy! slave_workbook tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy! subverse gives you 2 yellow vanilla-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. worthless_slut gives you 18 brown vanilla-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. her_knight ends up with 24 pieces of candy, a block of wood, and a rotten egg. Go trick-or-treating! Username: Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. somehow I'm not surprised. Those who tricked me...step close to me whip. :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 17th, 2005
11:22 pm	This is going to be an interesting post. As some of you might not have known, I had recently spent the most of last night and most of this morning in the hospital. I had recently suffered a brain injury when I fainted at work. Yes. You read right. Fainted at work. I had been going through some tense moments at both home and at work, feeling as if I was 'free falling in the dark' falling and not quite knowing when the darkness would be lifted. A brief update might be in order: Things are on the mend with Sharon, yet I seemed to have goofed recently. Tiffany was late showing up to relieve my shift for Monday so I could not meet her for our pre-arranged talk until much later. Tuesday night the same stunt happened. Wednesday night Jennifer had the hell beaten out of her and I had to spend some time with her in the hospital because she could not take over her shift. This had caused some tension because I normaly do not open up. I really need to..and I hope this falling has helped me to learn a lesson. Also things were going bad at work. Manager meals and employee discounts were yanked, as well as drinks (until yesterday). Tom's only excuse for this stupid-ass stunt was that his food cost was high. And he wanted it to be lowered. Idiot. Anyway, I was having some stress at some unexpected expenses, still somewhat worried about whether or not I was losing Sharon, and I walked into the store being a clusterfuck. Tom when he's doing his Administrative business more than shift business ...*Shakes his head in dismay* It took me three hours to repair the damage, and yet the store went to hell because he did not help, or was it because I didn't ask him to help do an Ingredient prep? Anyway, we were slammed. I had a 'challenged' person on the Front Register, a newbie in the Drive Thru and myself and another 'blonde-moment' girl making the food. Donna (challenged) was arguing with me about the Ingredient Prep b/c she wanted to do things how they used to be. And I was told that if we did not follow the new guide, and our area coach threw away any expired food, we would be documented. The stress, combined with the history of high blood pressure, and a couple of heart defects, caused me to pass out. I hit the floor hard. Left a nice gash on the back of my head and back. Spent most of the night in the hospital on the backboard, and most of the morning for observation. (4 Comments |Comment on this)